August 21, 2002 (Wednesday) 6:40 P.M. CT.
So, I have no job now. Actually, I didn't have a job Monday night, Tuesday morning. I went and sorted mail and stuff. Very hard work. Tears your fingers up really bad..they were all cut up. It's very fast paced work, and you work nonstop but for two 15 min breaks. I was going to be working 12:30 -5:30 A.M. 5 days a week, I believe...so, basically, I would make the same working for $7 an hour/ 40 hrs a week...so it wasn't that good of a deal. Plus, there are absolutely no benefits, and the job ends in 180 days.
I went to vocational rehabilitation today, the people who I worked with before to help find a job and get my medicine and doctor, whatever...but the lady was an idiot, she said I had already gone thru training, and they couldn't get me more training...they wouldn't pay for any of it. Yea, a shitty MS word and excel class...thanks so much for that great "training" jackasses. She said they wouldn't even pay for my medicine or anything...I would have to apply for Medicaid and that could take years...oh, so basically what you're saying is that you refuse to help me at all with my parents and my own tax dollars? Great, thanks for nothing. Oh, one more thing, bitch- learn how to talk....
So, now I have no idea what I'll do. I need to go to school, because I will never have anything but some shitty job till then. I have no idea if aid will pay for it all, my parents won't be considered in anything, since I'll be 24 by Dec. 31 of this year, so that helps...but, where am I going to go? Can I do this? Will I freak out and not go? I have no idea...I need to do something tho...and soon. This life is starting to suck big time.
I called my old job and asked if I could work part time 2 or 3 hours a night and do the stuff behind the tunnel in the building that I did before...but he basically said no. What an asshole. He pays lower than any other cleaning company in town, and can't give me a break after being gone just one week? Thanks so much Chad...dickhead! I swear, I'm not angry at people....I just speak the truth...
So...I guess that's that for now. I looked in the classifieds, but there is never shit in there...if there was, it's usually impossible to get any of the jobs. I have tried, I should know. I have no idea what will happen...sad, huh?
I'm out...