Good Riddance
Well. It's over with me and Lisa. I'm pretty convinced that she's either nuts or that it's Wes. A month ago when she started talking to Wes on the phone (the 32 yr old weirdo who sends her e mails talking about how he's 'falling for her'), also a month ago- she decided that after a year and a half, she needed a "break," which has now turned into- Josh I'm not in love with you anymore, I don't ever want to be with you as your gf again, even tho 2 months ago we were talking about getting together and marriage and if we wanted kids, and all of that.
I found e mails to wes and from wes, that she had to apologize for. She called me the next day and said she thought about it, and she understood where I was coming from, and that she wouldn't talk to Wes on the phone anymore...yet, she talked to him constantly the past month, tho she hasn't talked to me much at all. Lisa also has a blurty where she has 'private entries' that only her 'friends' can see. Who does she allow on the list? Wes, of course! And Ashley, the girl that Lisa has talked shit about on numerous occasions (I don't blame her, both Ashley and Church are total you know what's.) I made a blurty so she could add me, yet she says she doesn't want ME her "best friend" to see it...it's private and meant only for, you guessed it- Wes...and Ashley and some girl she hardly knows. You look at the evidence and add it all up. I just mention all of this, because HUGE coincidences like this don't happen...and wes. weirdo old guy buddy, you can have her.
Lisa admits that I did nothing wrong, that I treated her well, that- for a year and a half, thru her worst days, I was always there for her...always there with my support. She says she feels like a bitch for doing this to me, which makes sense...too bad she doesn't feel bad that she's lying about her reasoning and that Wes actually plays a big role in all of this- it's okay Lisa, people who see both our sites aren't idiots...they know the truth, no matter how much you deny it. You did me shitty, and you know that too. I think it only fair to share my side, since your last post clearly made me look like I did something terrible. We both know I didn't.
Well...since Lisa has suddenly fallen out of love with me, and she no longer wants to be in a relationship with me (tho she wants to be my friend- yea right), I will just say, that's the end of that. It's sorta okay tho, because let's face it- she's not good enough for me. I deserve much better. Sounds like something people would say, but it's true...she did me totally shitty this past month, when I was always there for her. What do I get for investing a year and a half of my time in a r-ship? Nothing at all. I get a little girl who suddenly has a change of heart...all those long conversations about seeing each other and loving each other forever, and getting married, and how we'd have a big library in our house- none of that means anything to her now. It means something to me. I don't just fall out of love with people on a whim...she isn't like me. Good thing- because I would never treat someone as badly as she has treated me the past month.
So, I guess that's that...I will look for someone else. Someone who won't play mind games with me...someone who won't flip flop out of the blue...someone who won't leave me for old men with kids. She'll change her mind tho...she has always said that this is the best and most important relationship she's ever had...that she's never truly been in love until I came along...all of that. But, she lost it...she threw it away like it was garbage. She'll be missing me soon enough, and I'll be gone forever. It's okay tho...because I'll find someone better...someone who won't suddenly stop loving me. I'm a great guy, I deserve more than that...any takers? :)
Treat people well, everyone...don't play with people's hearts and emotions. It's not right, it's not fair...it's not good. Be good...
UPDATE: I forgot to mention...Lisa gave Wes his own folder on her webspace. AND, she posted 40 mins ago on her Blurty that only Wes and Ashley can see...the evidence just keeps piling up :) It feels good to know the truth. The truth REALLY does set you free. Atleast I know that it wasn't something I did, it was just a case of a two timer without a heart. (whew)
ALSO- Lisa claims that she got mad at Wes on the phone the other day and wasn't going to talk to him anymore...because he said something bad about me. YET, she told me on the phone last night that Wes called her while she was in Vegas and her parents were right there...her dad even thought it was me, and said 'hi josh.' More and more evidence...It has NOTHING to do with Wes...never! Yea right...By the way slow one (Wes)- if a woman complains about her weight, NEVER tell her she's a "big woman." What an ass. She left me for a man who calls her a "big woman." How sad is that? lol.
UPDATE 2: You know what? I have to mention this as well. I love Lisa. I truly do. With all of my heart. If I could make things better...and bring her back and have us together- I would. I'd give anything for that. Maybe I sound like a sucker...an idiot...I dunno. I don't care. All I do know is that from the bottom of my heart, I am in love with Lisa. She is truly the most wonderful person I have ever met. She's one of the smartest girls I've ever talked to...she's funny, she's caring, she's sweet (just not lately she doesn't seem like all of those good things), I had so much fun with her. We have a lot in common...we have the same sort of thinking, the same values and such. We truly were a great couple. So, don't think she's a bad person. You take what happened...you form your own opinion. I'll just tell you that she changed my life...for the better. Tho right now, I'm in a bad place...that won't last forever. I just want you all to know that I truly, honestly, completely do love her with all that I am, and if I could make things better, I'd give everything I have ever had and will ever have to do so...Don't ever forget that much. I do care and I do love...but I do also feel betrayed and abandoned for no reason. Life makes no sense sometimes...That's all I can say.
More evidence:
from wes' blurty:
The start of something
It started because of a woman who wanted me to create a web site. The funny thing about that is that I create web sites and do dbase programming for a living. The issue for me is that I never created a site for just myself. She hounded me over and over so that we could link each other. Finally I decided to do this. Probably more for her than for myself. Who knows. This could be a lot of fun though, and I am ready to go down this path. Hey, maybe you can have fun and listen to my little nuggets of strange wisdom from a guy who thinks that dry ice is warm. Write to me or something.
JOSH: What woman? Oh wait...I forgot...It was LISA. SHOCKING...
Even MORE evidence:
I noticed this before. On Wes' blurty, he mentioned why he chose the name 'lost pants' and he said this-
lostpants
2003-04-23 00:06
Hey Ashley. I made up the name 'lostpants' because of the Dr. Seuss story about the pants with nobody inside them. It's a great story for kids, but has a big meaning regarding life in general. The story can be found in the (still published) "Sneetches and Other Stories" book by him.
I'm not a nudist, but did stumble on a nudist beach once with a friend of mine in Pajaro Dunes.
Lisa replied to his comment with this:
misslisa
2003-04-23 02:27 (link)
nononono... THE GIVING TREE! i've never read your story so i can't say which is better.. i will read it soon, though.
(i dont want to hear about the nude beach, thanks :P)
THEN--- I noticed this shows up on Lisa's amazon.com wishlist:
The Sneetches and Other Stories by Dr. Seuss, Dr Seuss
Usually ships in 24 hours
Date added: April 22, 2003
Desired: 1
Purchased: 0
Why is this evidence? Well. My favorite book...a novel by Robert Crais, I sent it to Lisa over a year ago...did she ever read it? Nope. Funny tho...she knows Wes for less than 2 months and she's got his favorite story in her wishlist so she can read it.
More evidence...and I post this here, because Lisa decided to post on her site that I betrayed her...and clearly, the truth should be known...It's not fair to claim someone did bad things to you when they obviosuly didn't...
Posted by Josh at May 6, 2003 04:11 AM
Good Riddance
Well. It's over with me and Lisa. I'm pretty convinced that she's either nuts or that it's Wes. A month ago when she started talking to Wes on the phone (the 32 yr old weirdo who sends her e mails talking about how he's 'falling for her'), also a month ago- she decided that after a year and a half, she needed a "break," which has now turned into- Josh I'm not in love with you anymore, I don't ever want to be with you as your gf again, even tho 2 months ago we were talking about getting together and marriage and if we wanted kids, and all of that.
I found e mails to wes and from wes, that she had to apologize for. She called me the next day and said she thought about it, and she understood where I was coming from, and that she wouldn't talk to Wes on the phone anymore...yet, she talked to him constantly the past month, tho she hasn't talked to me much at all. Lisa also has a blurty where she has 'private entries' that only her 'friends' can see. Who does she allow on the list? Wes, of course! And Ashley, the girl that Lisa has talked shit about on numerous occasions (I don't blame her, both Ashley and Church are total you know what's.) I made a blurty so she could add me, yet she says she doesn't want ME her "best friend" to see it...it's private and meant only for, you guessed it- Wes...and Ashley and some girl she hardly knows. You look at the evidence and add it all up. I just mention all of this, because HUGE coincidences like this don't happen...and wes. weirdo old guy buddy, you can have her.
Lisa admits that I did nothing wrong, that I treated her well, that- for a year and a half, thru her worst days, I was always there for her...always there with my support. She says she feels like a bitch for doing this to me, which makes sense...too bad she doesn't feel bad that she's lying about her reasoning and that Wes actually plays a big role in all of this- it's okay Lisa, people who see both our sites aren't idiots...they know the truth, no matter how much you deny it. You did me shitty, and you know that too. I think it only fair to share my side, since your last post clearly made me look like I did something terrible. We both know I didn't.
Well...since Lisa has suddenly fallen out of love with me, and she no longer wants to be in a relationship with me (tho she wants to be my friend- yea right), I will just say, that's the end of that. It's sorta okay tho, because let's face it- she's not good enough for me. I deserve much better. Sounds like something people would say, but it's true...she did me totally shitty this past month, when I was always there for her. What do I get for investing a year and a half of my time in a r-ship? Nothing at all. I get a little girl who suddenly has a change of heart...all those long conversations about seeing each other and loving each other forever, and getting married, and how we'd have a big library in our house- none of that means anything to her now. It means something to me. I don't just fall out of love with people on a whim...she isn't like me. Good thing- because I would never treat someone as badly as she has treated me the past month.
So, I guess that's that...I will look for someone else. Someone who won't play mind games with me...someone who won't flip flop out of the blue...someone who won't leave me for old men with kids. She'll change her mind tho...she has always said that this is the best and most important relationship she's ever had...that she's never truly been in love until I came along...all of that. But, she lost it...she threw it away like it was garbage. She'll be missing me soon enough, and I'll be gone forever. It's okay tho...because I'll find someone better...someone who won't suddenly stop loving me. I'm a great guy, I deserve more than that...any takers? :)
Treat people well, everyone...don't play with people's hearts and emotions. It's not right, it's not fair...it's not good. Be good...
UPDATE: I forgot to mention...Lisa gave Wes his own folder on her webspace. AND, she posted 40 mins ago on her Blurty that only Wes and Ashley can see...the evidence just keeps piling up :) It feels good to know the truth. The truth REALLY does set you free. Atleast I know that it wasn't something I did, it was just a case of a two timer without a heart. (whew)
ALSO- Lisa claims that she got mad at Wes on the phone the other day and wasn't going to talk to him anymore...because he said something bad about me. YET, she told me on the phone last night that Wes called her while she was in Vegas and her parents were right there...her dad even thought it was me, and said 'hi josh.' More and more evidence...It has NOTHING to do with Wes...never! Yea right...By the way slow one (Wes)- if a woman complains about her weight, NEVER tell her she's a "big woman." What an ass. She left me for a man who calls her a "big woman." How sad is that? lol.
UPDATE 2: You know what? I have to mention this as well. I love Lisa. I truly do. With all of my heart. If I could make things better...and bring her back and have us together- I would. I'd give anything for that. Maybe I sound like a sucker...an idiot...I dunno. I don't care. All I do know is that from the bottom of my heart, I am in love with Lisa. She is truly the most wonderful person I have ever met. She's one of the smartest girls I've ever talked to...she's funny, she's caring, she's sweet (just not lately she doesn't seem like all of those good things), I had so much fun with her. We have a lot in common...we have the same sort of thinking, the same values and such. We truly were a great couple. So, don't think she's a bad person. You take what happened...you form your own opinion. I'll just tell you that she changed my life...for the better. Tho right now, I'm in a bad place...that won't last forever. I just want you all to know that I truly, honestly, completely do love her with all that I am, and if I could make things better, I'd give everything I have ever had and will ever have to do so...Don't ever forget that much. I do care and I do love...but I do also feel betrayed and abandoned for no reason. Life makes no sense sometimes...That's all I can say.
More evidence:
from wes' blurty:
The start of something
It started because of a woman who wanted me to create a web site. The funny thing about that is that I create web sites and do dbase programming for a living. The issue for me is that I never created a site for just myself. She hounded me over and over so that we could link each other. Finally I decided to do this. Probably more for her than for myself. Who knows. This could be a lot of fun though, and I am ready to go down this path. Hey, maybe you can have fun and listen to my little nuggets of strange wisdom from a guy who thinks that dry ice is warm. Write to me or something.
JOSH: What woman? Oh wait...I forgot...It was LISA. SHOCKING...
Even MORE evidence:
I noticed this before. On Wes' blurty, he mentioned why he chose the name 'lost pants' and he said this-
lostpants
2003-04-23 00:06
Hey Ashley. I made up the name 'lostpants' because of the Dr. Seuss story about the pants with nobody inside them. It's a great story for kids, but has a big meaning regarding life in general. The story can be found in the (still published) "Sneetches and Other Stories" book by him.
I'm not a nudist, but did stumble on a nudist beach once with a friend of mine in Pajaro Dunes.
Lisa replied to his comment with this:
misslisa
2003-04-23 02:27 (link)
nononono... THE GIVING TREE! i've never read your story so i can't say which is better.. i will read it soon, though.
(i dont want to hear about the nude beach, thanks :P)
THEN--- I noticed this shows up on Lisa's amazon.com wishlist:
The Sneetches and Other Stories by Dr. Seuss, Dr Seuss
Usually ships in 24 hours
Date added: April 22, 2003
Desired: 1
Purchased: 0
Why is this evidence? Well. My favorite book...a novel by Robert Crais, I sent it to Lisa over a year ago...did she ever read it? Nope. Funny tho...she knows Wes for less than 2 months and she's got his favorite story in her wishlist so she can read it.
More evidence...and I post this here, because Lisa decided to post on her site that I betrayed her...and clearly, the truth should be known...It's not fair to claim someone did bad things to you when they obviosuly didn't...
Posted by Josh at May 6, 2003 04:11 AM